It's becoming clear now that in my lifetime we will see the truly awesome power of mother nature and what it wants. We will see and hear the cries of people in crisis. This year we've seen more destruction from natural disaster than ever before. Let us not forget what the money hoarders of this country have done and insisted upon by buying our government. They've let people poison our food, our water, and our air. Humans are so foolish and forgetful to think that releasing chemicals into the air and water has no effect. When will we see ourselves as other, united as one instead of constantly cutting off our own head? It reminds me of the ouroboros, constantly devouring itself. Maybe that's how peace is created, when people are too busy picking up the pieces of destruction to bear arms. It's been a long time since I've heard anything about the keystone pipeline. How easy it is for some to forget. There are major consequences to digging up sacred sites. This past set of eclipses really set things off in a major way. It's funny how people can pretend that the stars and planets have no effect on us. We like to think we're above these subtle waves but how could we be a part of everything without feeling a little bit of it? Everyone on this planet is the manifestation of an ancestors dream. The life I'm living was given to me by all the people that dreamed up things into reality long before I arrived on the scene, the plans of a house, street, name, building, car. The utensils I use to eat, draw, the way we utilize electricity. People have invented a number of incredible things and there are others that see inventions and intentionally find a way to make them disappear, they see it as a threat to money and big business control. Tesla is a prime example, a purveyor of free energy, he had a vision that would have changed the nightmare we see unfolding today so dramatically. As a lover of science and quantum physics, I can't help but think that reality exists. Sometimes I like to imagine what that world is like. Can you see it too?
Happy Eclipse Day! Hope you've found some time to reflect, clear your mind and ease yourself during this powerful transition. I'm stoked and feeling blessed to be alive at this point in time.
As many of you know the moon has inspired a significant amount of growth in me especially since taking up the alias Harmony Moon Pi, many people have asked what it means or how I came up with the name. The backstory began in 2012 when I started doing solo performances by the name Modesty. Modesty was not intended as a cover-up or meek name it represents the character Modesty Blaise a badass female comic hero/spy that lives by her own rules and belongs to no man. She's sexy, intelligent and cunning not to mention her ninja skills and the pursuit of the ultimate thrill of adventure!
Harmony Moon Pi was born around this time to distinguish my artistic and musical self and harness a series of synchronicities playing out during that time. It was really pretty simple, multiple versions of the word harmony were piercing into my awareness from the street I lived on, to the place I worked and a number of other things. What you may not know is that my birth name Chantelle means a song or a singer. My love of music has never wavered. However my desire to share and perform music has at times. That being said, it's all come full circle (Pi) I'm more creative and inspired than ever and using my skills to provide the best service I can. Harmony Moon Pi has become more than a brand, a moniker or an idea it's a journey of unwavering belief in my self and the many facets of my being, giving them each a place to stand in this world. Harmony Moon Pi is the result of my aspirations to exist peacefully in unity, balance and cosmic bliss. The name Harmony has even followed me into my career as an educator. It brings me joy to see teachers and children light up when they say my name.
This collage was made in loving memory of Gato the little black farm cat. This piece was made primarily of images from National Geographic Magazine 1983 & 2014
After recent events I've started to consider anger and how it works. This blog entry will be an exploration of anger and it's usefulness. I believe that there can be a positive aspect to anger. Anger invigorates us towards immediate action. While it's not always useful to be reactive with your anger, it is useful to feel inspired towards constructive action. Anger is a fierce energy, that demands our attention. One thing I've learned is that anger is usually the emotion that sets in before, after or during grief or pain. Pain is the underlying condition of anger. Anger can motivate us to speak up about injustices or "wrong doing" against us or the people we care for. If used constructively it calls our inner power to be used to point out something that doesn't sit well with you. If you are able to control your anger and harness it you can speed through issues of racism, sexism, or disrespect.
Over the past year I've spent a lot of time pondering about temperance. Temperance is moderation, or in other words, learning how to harness your fire side. It's a balance and a guide to achieving inner harmony and peace with others. I can't act like I'm the perfect person and don't yell or get upset when I'm angry. What I can say, is that I've learned to let that anger guide me and the people I surround myself with. Often times I've seen an immediate and significant shift after a fit of anger. Something important is being addressed and brought to the surface for clearing and it can be uncomfortable! Once you are able to state your case and feel heard usually those feelings dissipate immediately. Often times after a fit of anger I find it important to readdress what was learned calmly and of course apologize, usually not for the things I said, but for raising or changing the tone of my voice. If someone is raising their voice in anger it is a sign that person really wants to be heard! Now, it's not always easy to listen to someone once they are yelling! So it's a good idea if this makes you uncomfortable to tell the person, state your boundaries! You can calmly say, I see that you are upset but I cannot talk to you when you are yelling at me. Or you can walk away, hang up the phone and leave the conversation for another day. Every situation is different, it's a lot easier to handle with someone you know.
However, there are certainly incidents of unprovoked anger from a total stranger. In these instances I've found it important to observe the person's behavior carefully and find the safest exit. That person is obviously not in the state of mind to listen to reason and it's not your job to do so anyhow! It's hard to know how they could react. As a woman I've encountered this type of situation where all of my senses were alert, especially in a place where there was no one else to witness the harassment. I've encountered harassment in the workplace on multiple occasions and in these situations it was always important to quietly document the behavior. In some instances there were multiple issues that arose into something bigger. It's important to note what you are willing and able to tolerate and who you can turn to for help and support in the matter.
I do believe one of the most important factors in changing our relationship with anger is to acknowledge that a desire is not being fully met. In the case of harassment at work I was put into a situation where I was willing to ignore a lot of the issues I was having with the person as it seemed an intrinsic part of their personality. Once they sensed that I was unwilling to humor them they got angry and it was only then that I was able to tell them of multiple instances of inappropriate comments they had made. In this case their anger was met with information of which they had been entirely ignorant of until the circumstances called for clearing.
In sharing these thoughts I hope to cultivate a better understanding of the usefulness of fully expressing our emotions. Finding a container for our emotions is important, yet so is feeling through them and being heard. These are important times to use our fire as fuel instead of letting it go unchecked and becoming destructive.
Fear is the silent hunter. It's important to keep your fears in check. As a woman I assess my surroundings silently yet astutely calculating any potential danger that might be lurking. I feel this especially at night, walking alone to my car. It's a fear that keeps me aware and awake. It's a fear that most men probably don't have. It's a fear that keeps me from looking a stranger in the eye because eye contact could give them the wrong impression.
Tonight is the Hunter's Moon in Aries. Some also consider it a Supermoon, appearing much closer to Earth than usual. Learning about the cycle of the moon and it's many names has helped me feel a sense of consistency and insight in my life. Part of me wants to say it's helped me gain a sense of control, but in a lot of ways I know that's not true. Instead I'll say that insight gives you the tools to be better prepared for the changes at hand.
I've been interested in astrology in some vague way since I was a teen. My interest in it has come and gone in phases. Over the past few years I've been studying my relationship to the moon much more closely. How it makes me feel, how it effects my sleep, what else is going on in the sky? The time of year, the weather... etc. all important factors when considering what type of mood or state of mind I'm in.
This moon seems to center around balancing the aggression of imbalanced masculine energy. Aries is the sign of fire, action and war, it's aggressive. It's good for getting things done but it can be insensitive and domineering, with little to no regard as to how it's affecting others. There's a time to forge ahead and a time to lay low. Feeling through the cycles of the moon has taught me that. It seems to me there's more pressure on men to be strong and use "force" to combat it's enemies with "don't cry/be a man" rhetoric.
Something prevalent in our culture when you see someone crying is to say "don't cry" as a sign of comfort. However what you're really saying is completely insensitive to the person expressing their tears. You're telling them while they're in the most vulnerable of states not to feel what they feel, which is terrible advice. I think we treat ourselves as the enemy with this type of conflicting information. When people tell you over and over again not to cry when you want to cry, to cover up your grief and to "smile" instead. Every time you dull your feelings to put someone else at ease you are breaking your boundaries and telling yourself to bury and hide pain and not let it out because it's not safe, it makes others uncomfortable. Discomfort is not the enemy, it's the catalyst for real change. It's an opportunity for growth and connection to be made.
This moon feels particularly uncomfortable to me, like things are rising to a climactic peak. At the forefront of my mind is Rape Culture and he who's name I shall not speak. As an empath I've slowly and steadily phased a lot of things out of my life, especially within the past year. Slowly becoming aware of anything toxic in my atmosphere. Anything that could make me feel ill or unwell. At the forefront of toxicity is American Politics and there are many victims to this hunter. Every time you curse a politician or listen to their same rhetoric you're allowing yourself to ingest a little bit of their poison. Slowly but surely incapacitating you, to feel helpless and alone or afraid.
It comes as no surprise to me that the Hunter's Moon falls in Aries this year, it makes perfect sense with all the things floating around in the air that most of us have been afraid to confront and look at. Someone once told me that the best way to scare a stranger is to shine a light on them. Once they're really seen it's more difficult for them to make an attack, it bewilders them like an animal. Now, although this is hearsay, It speaks some truth to me. Inaction comes from turning a blind eye, pretending it doesn't exist, walking the other way and the old idiom comes in "what you resist, persists". The enemy comes closer, lurking always in the shadow. Yet when you shine a light on it, it's forced to come direct, you see the moves being made and you're better able to find a way to counteract. Yet, darkness does recede in the light. It yields to it. Never be afraid to shine your light, to challenge someone's darkness. Especially your own. Feel into your grief, your sorrow, your tears. I beg every man to do this without shame. I encourage women to support this growth with tenderness. A lot of our men are sick from unfelt, ungrieved emotions that have buried themselves deep and presented themselves as monsters in the dark.
Fact Magazine recently featured my friends S U R V I V E with this bomb ass mix, I recommend turning it up loud and driving around like you own the place. At least that's what I've been doing. Adam Jones of Holodeck records member ofbands S U R V I V E and Troller have been inspiring me for ages. They embody the type of friends you can feel from miles away and when you see them in person they're just some chill ass dudes with epic taste in music. It brings me so much joy to see them thriving and getting well deserved recognition.
*side note* still figuring out my blog and I am unable to embed the music content link right now :( will fix soon
Seeking inspiration is essential to any practice. As an artist I've intimately felt what it is to be so bored and uninspired often enough to know it's not pleasant, it doesn't feel good! Who wants to be bored, right!? Well what makes people bored? Your brain says I'm hungry and you go, I'll feed you later I gotta think about feeding my stomach or XYZ number of other things. Make an excuse to feel bored, or don't. However, the world is never void of interesting things. Sometimes you gotta do the work to get yourself out of it. Go outside, exercise, play, read, breathe, meditate. Anyhow these are just some thoughts put into words about what I've learned, because I'm rarely bored, even when I have seemingly "nothing to do". I am happy to say that I am inspired and in love. Inquiring minds might want to know, well who are you in love with? I'm in love with you, and me and everything else in between. Even the dark dirty ugly things. Those too, especially, can be inspiring. I've been reading Albert Camus' book "A Happy Death". It's a book I highly recommend, I haven't read a novel in years but I enjoyed his popular book "The Stranger". This novel is a prequel to The Stranger. I love the way he describes the magnificence of being around someone you have very fond feelings for and how quickly it can be tinged by jealousy! Or other uncomfortable feelings!! It's not all roses, it's dirt, shit and thorns. But I love loving. I encourage you to fall in love with at least one thing every single day.
Many Hearts as one,
This image was created using two original photographs I'd taken. One color image, the other black and white. The bottom image was taken in the green belt area under Mopac bridge near Twin Falls. It was a place that I used to frequent in high school and sometimes college. If I remember correctly this was taken in highschool when I was probably a junior taking a photo class at Austin Community College. The top layer is the color image taken around ladybird lake in this area that is now roped off or possibly destroyed this gazebo that homeless people often slept in. It was beautiful and weathered with plant matter crossing it's wooden planks. I want to say that photograph was probably taken a few years later in college. The images were flipped and inverted to create a mirror image. This is one of the few that survived the great computer crash of 2011. Many of the works I created in this style are forever lost to my knowledge.
As my first new blog post I'd like to point to this incredible mix of women, the full article can be found here
1. Glynis Jones : Magic Bird Song (1976)
2. Doris Norton : Norton Rythm Soft (1986)
3. Colette Magny : « Avec » Poème (1966)
4. Daphne Oram : Just For You (Excerpt 1)
5. Laurie Spiegel : Clockworks (1974)
6. Pauline Oliveiros : Bog Bog (1966)
7. Megan Roberts – I Could Sit Here All Day (1977)
8. Suzanne Ciani : Paris 1971
9. Laurie Anderson : Tape Bow Trio (Say Yes) (1981)
10. Glynis Jones : Schlum Rooli (1975)
11. Ruth White : Mists And Rains (1969)
12. Wendy Carlos : Spring (1972)
13. Ann McMillan : Syrinx (1978)
14. Delia Derbyshire : Restless Relays (1969)
15. Maggi Payne : Flights Of Fancy (1986)
16. Else Marie Pade : Syv Cirkler (1958)
17. Daniela Casa : Ricerca Della Materia (1975)
18. The Space Lady : Domine, Libra Nos (1990)
19. Johanna Beyer : Music Of The Spheres 
20. Maddalena Fagandini : Interval Signal (1960)
21. Eliane Radigue : Chryptus I (1970)
22. Ruth White : Owls (1969)
23. Ursula Bogner : Speichen
24. Beatriz Ferreyra – Demeures Aquatiques (1967)
25. Doris Norton : War Mania Analysis (1983)
26. Tera De Marez Oyens : Safed
27. Daphne Oram : Rhythmic Variation II (1962)
28. Mireille Chamass-Kyrou : Etude 1 (1960)
29. Laurie Spiegel : Drums (1983)
30. Teresa Rampazzi : Stomaco 2
31. Teresa Rampazzi : Esofago 1
32. Suzanne Ciani : Fourth Voice: Sound Of Wetness (1970)
33. Ursula Bogner : Expansion (1979)
34. Alice Shields : Sacrifice (1993)
35. Megan Roberts and Raymond Ghirardo : ATVO II (1987)
36. Laurie Anderson : Drums (1981)
37. Doris Hays : Somersault Beat (1971)
38. Lily Greenham : Tillid (1973)
39. Ruth Anderson : Points (1973-74)
40. Pril Smiley : Kolyosa (1970)
41. Catherine Christer Hennix : The Electric Harpsichord (1976)
42. Joan La Barbara : Solo for Voice 45 (from Songbooks) (1977)
43. Slava Tsukerman, Brenda Hutchinson & Clive Smith : Night Club 1 (1983)
44. Monique Rollin : Motet (Etude Vocale)
45. Sofia Gubaidulina : Vivente – Non Vivente (1970)
46. Ruth White : Spleen (1967)
47. Doris Hays : Scared Trip (1971)
48. Daphne Oram : Pulse Persephone (Alternate Parts For Mixing)
49. Maggi Payne : Gamelan (1984)
50. Laurie Spiegel : The Unquestioned Answer (1980)
51. Ursula Bogner : Homöostat (1985)
52. Wendy Carlos : Summer (1972)
53. Suzanne Ciani : Princess With Orange Feet
54. Pauline Oliveiros : Poem Of Change (1993)
55. Suzanne Ciani : Thirteenth Voice: And All Dreams Are Not For Sale (1970)