Fear is the silent hunter. It's important to keep your fears in check. As a woman I assess my surroundings silently yet astutely calculating any potential danger that might be lurking. I feel this especially at night, walking alone to my car. It's a fear that keeps me aware and awake. It's a fear that most men probably don't have. It's a fear that keeps me from looking a stranger in the eye because eye contact could give them the wrong impression.
Tonight is the Hunter's Moon in Aries. Some also consider it a Supermoon, appearing much closer to Earth than usual. Learning about the cycle of the moon and it's many names has helped me feel a sense of consistency and insight in my life. Part of me wants to say it's helped me gain a sense of control, but in a lot of ways I know that's not true. Instead I'll say that insight gives you the tools to be better prepared for the changes at hand.
I've been interested in astrology in some vague way since I was a teen. My interest in it has come and gone in phases. Over the past few years I've been studying my relationship to the moon much more closely. How it makes me feel, how it effects my sleep, what else is going on in the sky? The time of year, the weather... etc. all important factors when considering what type of mood or state of mind I'm in.
This moon seems to center around balancing the aggression of imbalanced masculine energy. Aries is the sign of fire, action and war, it's aggressive. It's good for getting things done but it can be insensitive and domineering, with little to no regard as to how it's affecting others. There's a time to forge ahead and a time to lay low. Feeling through the cycles of the moon has taught me that. It seems to me there's more pressure on men to be strong and use "force" to combat it's enemies with "don't cry/be a man" rhetoric.
Something prevalent in our culture when you see someone crying is to say "don't cry" as a sign of comfort. However what you're really saying is completely insensitive to the person expressing their tears. You're telling them while they're in the most vulnerable of states not to feel what they feel, which is terrible advice. I think we treat ourselves as the enemy with this type of conflicting information. When people tell you over and over again not to cry when you want to cry, to cover up your grief and to "smile" instead. Every time you dull your feelings to put someone else at ease you are breaking your boundaries and telling yourself to bury and hide pain and not let it out because it's not safe, it makes others uncomfortable. Discomfort is not the enemy, it's the catalyst for real change. It's an opportunity for growth and connection to be made.
This moon feels particularly uncomfortable to me, like things are rising to a climactic peak. At the forefront of my mind is Rape Culture and he who's name I shall not speak. As an empath I've slowly and steadily phased a lot of things out of my life, especially within the past year. Slowly becoming aware of anything toxic in my atmosphere. Anything that could make me feel ill or unwell. At the forefront of toxicity is American Politics and there are many victims to this hunter. Every time you curse a politician or listen to their same rhetoric you're allowing yourself to ingest a little bit of their poison. Slowly but surely incapacitating you, to feel helpless and alone or afraid.
It comes as no surprise to me that the Hunter's Moon falls in Aries this year, it makes perfect sense with all the things floating around in the air that most of us have been afraid to confront and look at. Someone once told me that the best way to scare a stranger is to shine a light on them. Once they're really seen it's more difficult for them to make an attack, it bewilders them like an animal. Now, although this is hearsay, It speaks some truth to me. Inaction comes from turning a blind eye, pretending it doesn't exist, walking the other way and the old idiom comes in "what you resist, persists". The enemy comes closer, lurking always in the shadow. Yet when you shine a light on it, it's forced to come direct, you see the moves being made and you're better able to find a way to counteract. Yet, darkness does recede in the light. It yields to it. Never be afraid to shine your light, to challenge someone's darkness. Especially your own. Feel into your grief, your sorrow, your tears. I beg every man to do this without shame. I encourage women to support this growth with tenderness. A lot of our men are sick from unfelt, ungrieved emotions that have buried themselves deep and presented themselves as monsters in the dark.